Over the course of the holidays writing this blog post has been in the back of my mind as I have continuously pondered on what to write. I wanted to write about something I felt strongly about, one where I could voice my opinion slightly more. And then something happened over the course of Christmas and it became clear to me what it was that I should write about and at first I didn't know how to go about it. Now, I feel like I've found that way and it is a blog post in the style of a letter.

Dear Logan Paul,

I’m pretty sure you can guess where this is going and what I’m about to address, oh yes…your “we found a dead body” video that you published on YouTube on 31 December 2017. I’m pretty sure your goal was to get people talking and well, you did just that.

I don’t want to talk about your excuse of an apology which was full of “I’s” and “me’s” or your actual excuse itself. You claimed you “didn’t know what you were doing” and “didn’t have time to think” but quite frankly, I don’t believe you. I don’t believe that you didn’t know what you were doing when you came across the dead body and continued filming. I don’t believe you didn’t know what you were doing when you stood next to that poor man and laughed. I don’t believe that you didn’t know what you were doing when you took the SD card from the camera, edited the footage and then published it on YouTube for everyone to see. You knew, but for some reason you weren’t expecting the uproar against you.

When I was browsing through YouTube on New Years Eve, your video was on the home page. The title and the thumbnail were what pulled me into clicking on the video and all I could think was “surely not…” I clicked that video purely because I was shocked, as I can imagine most people were when this video was set in front of their eyes which is why it accumulated the millions of views that it did. It hit home with me, as I’m sure it did with many others.

In the beginning, you talk about visiting Aokigahara, Japan’s notorious suicide forest, due to the fact it’s allegedly haunted. Minutes before any graphic content is even shown, you address depression and suicide and how it is not a joke and that you can talk to people if you ever feel that low. Despite your usual obnoxious and over-the-top behaviour, I thought that this was a good message to include consider the vast audience you have. However, this message is completely contradicting just a few moments later when you find a man who had just recently committed suicide and proceed to make him the punchline of your jokes. Obviously, your message wasn’t clear enough.Not once did you apologise to the poor victim’s family who most probably found out about his suicide through your vlog, even though the smartest thing would have been not to film the encounter or even upload the footage at all. Not once did you think about the young children in your audience who will watch your video and be scared for life. Not once did you think about people who are fighting with depression who may have been triggered by your video.

It really is a shame that YouTube took this long to cut business ties with you or even upload a statement at all regarding the matter. They are to blame too amongst all of this because they are the ones who failed to take it down even though they other YouTubers videos are constantly demonetised for pathetic reasons. I’m also disappointed that they kept it on the trending page for hours upon hours. So, you’re not the only one who I’m disappointed with here.

Logan Paul, I bet you’re really wishing you had a time machine now so you can change everything. Alter your actions. Give a different message. Never hit that upload button. There’s no such thing as a time machine but I’d like to give my own message: If you’re reading this and you suffer from depression or are having suicidal thoughts please remember you are not alone, no matter how much you feel like it. If you feel like you can’t talk to someone you know then please register for online therapy such as 7 Cups, Talk Space or Better Help. The UK suicide hotline is 116 123 and is open 24/7 and all hotlines for every country can easily be found online. Suicide is not the answer and if you’re looking for a sign this is it -  things do get better in the end, if they’re not better then it’s not the end.


Someone who cares. 

Dear Logan Paul